Do you get days where you wake up feeling that life seems to deal you out far too many trials and tribulations and very few triumphs? I seem to be incapable of sleeping in because once I wake I have to get up otherwise I lie there thinking of all the things I have to do, bills I have to pay, problems I have to solve however once up I seem much more able to deal with them. Once the day gets going there is little time to worry too much about the problems and often time solves many of those that at 5 a.m. seemed insolvable.
Apparently as a Mother you are only ever as happy as your saddest child which does not lighten one’s load and perhaps explains why children seem to be able to sleep the sleep of the dead as they only have a few worries whilst I am tossing and turning.
I currently have to worry about my eldest daughter in Qatar where, even in that near paradise, the sabre rattling of other Middle Eastern countries are starting a ripple effect reaching their neighbouring countries. Currently her passport is with the authorities awaiting the official stamp for her residency but once returned she is going to hop on a plane home for a mini break. Eldest son is out in Africa on business sorting out a problem created by one of his clients who has upset a General in one of those not so stable countries.
But when all is said and done, we, as a family, are all healthy so everything else is fairly irrelevant but even so it doesn’t stop one lying in bed with my mind racing!
However the best way I find to deal with it is get up but don’t turn on the news where you get told that we are about to run out of water, World War III could be started soon in the Middle East, people everywhere are suffering from losing loved ones, unnecessarily, through poverty, war, accident etc BUT do turn on your Kindle and have a good read as it makes you feel so much calmer and pushes aside all those worries as you can’t read and worry! Maybe this is why so many more books are being read at the moment because it is a good way to escape from this life of constant bad news.
My current book is Pure by Andrew Miller, winner of the Costa prize, an historical novel set in late 18th century Paris. His writing is so evocative of the time that you feel as if you can smell the Paris he is describing, feel the dirt under your nails, taste the basic foods they survive on whilst experiencing first hand the destruction of a cemetery that is tainting the lives of everyone who lives nearby. Great 5 a.m. reading…….