Does anyone else out there ever wonder who they are going to be when they wake up in the morning, Mother Theresa, Betty Boop or Marlene Dietrich? At the moment I can’t seem to predict my character from one day to the next and I would have thought that by this time I’d have a pretty good understanding of my own character. Yesterday morning for example I woke up, went to the bathroom, did what I had to do and I remember thinking very clearly to myself, today I feel peaceful, happy and positive and am therefore looking forward to the next 12hrs, but days do not always start off quite like that and the negative feelings I may wake up with, for no apparent reason, usually remain with me for the whole day. It’s bizarre and super irritating because I seem to have little control over these emotions, they just happen and I have to go along with whichever mood attaches itself to my body during the night, it’s like a sprinkling of fairy dust one night and devil dust the next.
I imagine that this unpredictability must be a combination of so many things, hormones being the main culprit, the dynamics between the different hormones swimming around inside our bodies must be very powerful, what one has eaten and drunk the day before would also make a difference I presume, then there’s the weather….pissing down doesn’t help and of course the time of the month is a good one (or not) mix this together with two spoonfulls of husband and Abracadabra….Hocus Pocus, expect unreliable and fluctuating results!
Never mind, just bring on tomorrow is all I can say…….
Ellie x